As a mother of a son born to Heaven many years ago my search for precious things to remind me of him has been an on going journey and in doing so it led me on the path of memorial dolls. For the past 11 years I have created memorial reborn dolls, these are realistic vinyl dolls that resemble the baby. It’s been a beautiful journey and my dolls have shipped all around the world. However I have searched for other ways to help families, sometimes the reborn dolls are to realistic, or the expense is something the family just can’t endure, which is what gave me the idea to create my beautiful crochet dolls. Not only are they adorable and affordable, they also are so very cuddly. I know for me my reborn doll is just displayed, I never want to really handle it because of the it is a work of heart, but my Heaven Sent doll, that doll I can hold and cuddle and not worry at all. Heaven Sent dolls are also a great option for siblings of a lost baby. They too grieve so very much and giving them away to hold and honor their sibling is so very comforting for them too.
My story for how I came up with the idea of Heaven Sent dolls is actually quite beautiful. It was the wee hours of the morning on March 21st, 2020. My own angel’s birthday. I do celebrate his birthday each year, but over the years this day no longer was a sad day, instead one of peacefulness and love. But for some reason I just couldn’t rest, my heart felt like I need to search for something, something to connect me to my angel. I didn’t understand this feeling, because I always feel very connected to my boy, and have so many things in his memory. What I would come to realize is that I was looking for something to connect with him, instead it was his push for me to search for another way to share my artistic skills with others that have lost a baby. My search was for the perfect thing to just cuddle that would make me think of my angel. I was on so many different websites looking for the perfect thing, but couldn’t find anything that resonated with me. Then it dawned on me, I already had the skills to make the perfect thing to cuddle, I could crochet a doll that would feel like him. But then I realized it wasn’t about something I needed, but something I needed to do. It wasn’t that I didn’t feel connected to my son, it was that we were very connected and he was trying to give me a message of something I needed to do. Which is why I named these dolls Heaven Sent, the idea of them truly came from Heaven.
I will say my first doll, I did create for me, and I so adore my little Joshy Heaven Sent doll. But right away on his birthday I started with knowing this project wasn’t just for me, it was to share with all. So it all happened pretty fast, within days I had made a few dolls to share with the world. I found someone to create the perfect logo that you see here on the website , I created a facebook page and this website. The message from my son was loud and clear, this was something I needed to do. So here we are, these dolls are not from just one pattern, I couldn’t find the perfect pattern so I combined multiple patterns and also added in my own ideas. It is my hope that this beautiful idea will also be a way for others to begin their healing journey. I am excited for this new adventure and I know my son will be guiding me along the way.